Lavendersky

Haven't written a blog here in so long...I thought I would never write here again...but here I came..when I feel down...

Today, facebook's horoscope says "You need a little space to process everything that's going on in your life! "...I think I kind of do...

I think i've been kind of emotional in the past hour...then duno why I found myself in this depressed mood...hvnt felt like this, hvnt got time to feel like this in so long..

was gonna sleep..but..jus wanna write sth here...

 

Fortune cookie says... Happiness = Reality  - Expectations

Is that rele true..i mean..how can one improve..if one sets no expectations..

Expectations here means...expectations from anyone/anything other than yourself..

expect more from myself...none from the others

reality - expectations = happiness

 

maybe i can pull myself outta this after a good nite's sleep...

good nite expectations...good morning happiness

I had my last test/midterm/quiz this semester today . Just waiting for finals.

finally some time for me to relax and sleep.

tonite I will dream happily about my summer coming up, my China.

ADIDAS, All Day I Dream About Summer. I have said this last  year, it's time to repeat this phrase at this time of year again.

 

Being responsible makes someone really attractive. Being responsible not just to ur friends or family members, but even to a stranger. That moment, I was really touched.

 

Anyways, 46 days till I can see my dear mommy and my dear China again.

I should get my visa soon.

 

Haven't updated this blog in so long, did anyone miss me? lol....

Will you ever know?

Will I ever find out?

I want to know, but I don't want you to know.

 

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I am bored. Anyone may contact me to hang out and play somewhere, preferably in the library. Thank you.

ps. It is ok to play elsewhere other than library around campus too.

ps again. I hope we both know.

 

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Status: I want to go home. I miss my mom.

 

Don't know when did I start being this closed. Closed to msn space. Closed to hardly write anything down here. Maybe I don't want people to know. Or I don't know what is there to write about.

(Later, after i posted this blog, i edited this part. I think there is noth exciting to record about my life... I find I only updated 5 times ever since i got back to canada after last summer. Averaging 1 blog per month. updating for the sake of updating. give me sth new in my life plz. give me A++ plz. )

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Please leave ur message. Ur support = My smile.

 

I thought I am so bored in this Robarts library, i cannot study anymore, so i am updating this place.

One more week of school then exams start.

Finally!

But why is the hardest course linear algebra on the first day of exam period, and the easier subject computer science is all the way on the second last day of the exam period. Maybe this is so that we don't do well on the exams.

 

For unknown reason(aka laziness + slacking off), I cannot study anymore, and seem to find a pattern....

On the first midterm/test/assignment of every course i seem to get a very good mark, then on the second one I do really bad. I am lazy i admit.

Except that east asian studies didnt' follow this patter, I started with a bad mark.

So this coming up monday I will have to wrote the second test in that course, i hope it follows the reversed pattern and i can get an A :D...

But i know miracles don't happen, i still havent start that Essay about Emperor QinShi Huang and Legalism in the Qin dynasty. Let's hope it's not on the test.

 

This is the first time i understand procrastination doesn't take ur essay anywhere...

 

Add oil goes to everyone who are taking exams/tests. Add oil. Add oil. Add oil.

Drink more water too.

Thank you

 

p.s. What to do on new year's eve? I wanna play. I wanna play.

What to do after exams.

I wanna sleep, watch tv, drink soup, drink 糖水, eat, eat, eat, play, karaoke.......Let's make this my wish list....

The items in my wish list cannot be given by santa claus...I'll have to accomplish them all during my break.

ha， 哈， HA!

I didn't update this place in a while, even cc herself has forgot about this space...

Today I got my term test back, 76 %!!!!!!East Asian Studies...o dammit...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not that this mark shouldn't belong to me...it's that I don't belong to this mark....@@@

@_@_@!!!

 

今天看完靜的space。。她提起了這個暑假的Killer..我又懷念了。。把那900多張相片反復看了幾次。。。想想開心的事。。

然後接著學習。。。

 

didn't have time to update this place in a while...

 

Happy birthday TO Sisi　Xu!!!

 

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uploaded some pics of food i cooked...hahahaha...so damn proud XD...

OCT 06 18：54

從金銀島寄來的信

 

幾天前讀這封信，開心+興奮。。因爲都等了一陣。。

今天回來，學習前，打開柜筒又看到這封信，又拆開讀了一次。

這次是感動+欣慰。。欣慰我有這樣的好朋友

雖然認識不久，很多話説，也好像認識了很久一樣。

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國慶前一晚，我是這樣度過。。。

OCT 01

開學以後，沒什麽時間再來打理這個space了。

今天是國慶節，我坐在電腦前，浪費了一個小時。。再一個小時。。。

聼歌，玩msn

 

9月30號過12點之前...我放棄了java。。。

感冒好冷，我就一邊擦鼻涕一邊做223的suggested homework problem..

和中國的朋友 "表叔"聊天。。

看到hh的msn顯示在聼“別説我的眼淚你無所謂”，就要求他發給我。。

老歌好聽。。。就loop了一次又一次。。

然後聽到姓陳的發給我的那首超正的友情歲月，就開始懷戀這個暑假，想起我們幾個人，也許他也看不到我會在這裡寫他。。

跟姓采的互相說說需要進精神病院，然後鼓勵說如何可以在做錯n次數學題以後找回自信

和Sisi哈拉一下中華小姐 和 X-man的問題。。。

和那個自稱是混血兒的中國人講圖書館問題， 講吃lunch怎樣才不浪費時間，順便互相貶低幾句

時間真快啊。。

這好像是我開學以來第一個沒有利用時間學習的周末。。

 

明天要是天氣好，就去見見sisi,需要見見老朋友。。調整下心情。

最近好像是有點心理不對。。

我累了，睡不着。

 

To non-chinese readers....sorry...this blog is in chinese...

basic translation.. I'm not in a stable mental state. -__-

 

星期一，沒有eco lecture,我有4個小時空，約了人去圖書館，還要準備找TA小楊。。

星期一，就會好好學習了。

加油加油加油 XD XD XD

在做錯n 次題後，自信還是會找回來的，對吧？

 

好開心吖！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！我18喇！！！！！！

好多謝朋友仔們陪我過生日，又有禮物， 仲送花喎！！好開心啊！！哇。。收花噶心情。。。 >.<

喇喇喇。。。。好多謝大家。。。如果無你地。。我呢個生日會好冷清。。。要自己煮野比自己食啦。。。。

 

好。。。18嵗這年。。。我要努力讀書，黎報答大家對我噶厚愛！！！多謝大家！！

 

嗯。。。今晚笑得太多。。好攰。。。寫住甘多先。。訓覺啦。。。

聼日9：00am去見靚仔prof.... >_<